I think that I have been a little down lately. In need of a little cheering up, maybe.
But sometimes all you need to cheer you up is something to change. Not something big or important necessarily, just a change.
Generally, I dislike changes. That is, changes that aren't decided by me. I like to have things done a certain way, and I am happy with the way some things are so when that changes without me wanting it, it bothers me a lot. It usually means that I have to get accustomed to a new reality, one that I might not be prepared, or willing to face, no matter how insignificant the change was. I guess that's why I have my iTunes and Opera set to "don't check for updates" and use outdated versions, because I was really frustrated by "new" features that were more of a burden rather than helpful and was forced to revert.
On the other hand, when I decide to change something, and I really want to do that, I end up enjoying it a lot. And I'm not talking about things that are stagnant and desperately need changing necessarily, but also small, trivial changes that wouldn't seem to be much of a difference but end up exciting me and so their final effect is very important. This will all make better sense if I become more specific, huh? Okay then...
I have a room, not too small, not too big, but it has an awkward structure. The way it's built, and the place where the doors and the closet are, it all makes it hard to fit everything in a satisfying way. There's a lot of space that's being wasted. And I had everything, my bed, bookcases, desk etc., fit in a specific way. It was usable, it'd been like that for 4 years now after all, but a little crammed. The last few days I had been thinking of changing it up though. The main reason, I think, was that my desk was pretty much unusable, as it was right in front of the door so I couldn't have a chair there, plus there was not enough light to study there. I didn't use it for that reason, but I recently decided I wanted to use it more (the last 4 years it's been used as a "throw everything you're not using on it" kind of furniture) so I had to find a way.
Thinking about it, I didn't seem to be able to find a way to fit it all. Would I have to get rid of something then? I tried using a measuring tape to see if my bed would fit if I turned it 90 degrees, but the results were inconclusive. Apparently it would fit, but without much, if any, space to pass to the other side of the room. And there'd be no room for the chair to my computer. Disheartened, I pretty much gave up. Until yesterday, that is.
I only started to clean up, and that's all I was planning to do really, but ended up doing a lot more than that. I decided that I'd try it out and see it in action if it could work or not. It didn't really work the way I initially thought, but I guess when you've started and you're willing to mix it up, you can make it work. Although I started with the goal of simply rotating my bed and moving my computer's desk a little, I ended up moving everything not nailed on the floor to a totally different place. It still looks a bit crammed, I admit, but I think everything is usable now. I can even fully open the door to the balcony (I could only half-open it before, because of a bookcase being in the way) and I'm pretty excited about that. It probably means I'll be able to use the balcony more, too.
The bottom line, besides the improved functionality of this change, is that this was something I really liked in the end. It really brightened my mood. I felt like I was sleeping in a different room yesterday, and I liked that excitement. Makes me love my room more!
Anyway, if I want to get philosophical again, sometimes it seems that a small change like that, can affect you a lot in a good way. It can unblock you, if you're being blocked, about certain things and helps you advance. After all, like one of my teachers said (he was a brilliant mathematician and a very good man) and that's one of the things he's taught me that I remember vividly, "when you're facing a problem and can't seem to find a solution, there's always the method of "do something" ". "Something" doesn't have to be the right thing necessarily, but you can't sit on your ass and wait for the problem to simply go away on its own. It can happen sometimes, I suppose, but you can't really count on that. So just do something. And maybe that "something" will lead you to another "something" and eventually you'll get "somewhere".
That's how I feel right now. There have been some things that I can't seem to finish (some of them I can't even start) and no matter how much I've tried, there's been no progress, but this rearrangement of my room's furniture has given me a new perspective, I'd say, and I think I might be able to go on now. We'll see.
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| Yeah... Not doing that. |
But sometimes all you need to cheer you up is something to change. Not something big or important necessarily, just a change.
Generally, I dislike changes. That is, changes that aren't decided by me. I like to have things done a certain way, and I am happy with the way some things are so when that changes without me wanting it, it bothers me a lot. It usually means that I have to get accustomed to a new reality, one that I might not be prepared, or willing to face, no matter how insignificant the change was. I guess that's why I have my iTunes and Opera set to "don't check for updates" and use outdated versions, because I was really frustrated by "new" features that were more of a burden rather than helpful and was forced to revert.
On the other hand, when I decide to change something, and I really want to do that, I end up enjoying it a lot. And I'm not talking about things that are stagnant and desperately need changing necessarily, but also small, trivial changes that wouldn't seem to be much of a difference but end up exciting me and so their final effect is very important. This will all make better sense if I become more specific, huh? Okay then...
I have a room, not too small, not too big, but it has an awkward structure. The way it's built, and the place where the doors and the closet are, it all makes it hard to fit everything in a satisfying way. There's a lot of space that's being wasted. And I had everything, my bed, bookcases, desk etc., fit in a specific way. It was usable, it'd been like that for 4 years now after all, but a little crammed. The last few days I had been thinking of changing it up though. The main reason, I think, was that my desk was pretty much unusable, as it was right in front of the door so I couldn't have a chair there, plus there was not enough light to study there. I didn't use it for that reason, but I recently decided I wanted to use it more (the last 4 years it's been used as a "throw everything you're not using on it" kind of furniture) so I had to find a way.
Thinking about it, I didn't seem to be able to find a way to fit it all. Would I have to get rid of something then? I tried using a measuring tape to see if my bed would fit if I turned it 90 degrees, but the results were inconclusive. Apparently it would fit, but without much, if any, space to pass to the other side of the room. And there'd be no room for the chair to my computer. Disheartened, I pretty much gave up. Until yesterday, that is.
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| Random photo to break up wall of text. Basically, my name in Yevon font. |
I only started to clean up, and that's all I was planning to do really, but ended up doing a lot more than that. I decided that I'd try it out and see it in action if it could work or not. It didn't really work the way I initially thought, but I guess when you've started and you're willing to mix it up, you can make it work. Although I started with the goal of simply rotating my bed and moving my computer's desk a little, I ended up moving everything not nailed on the floor to a totally different place. It still looks a bit crammed, I admit, but I think everything is usable now. I can even fully open the door to the balcony (I could only half-open it before, because of a bookcase being in the way) and I'm pretty excited about that. It probably means I'll be able to use the balcony more, too.
The bottom line, besides the improved functionality of this change, is that this was something I really liked in the end. It really brightened my mood. I felt like I was sleeping in a different room yesterday, and I liked that excitement. Makes me love my room more!
Anyway, if I want to get philosophical again, sometimes it seems that a small change like that, can affect you a lot in a good way. It can unblock you, if you're being blocked, about certain things and helps you advance. After all, like one of my teachers said (he was a brilliant mathematician and a very good man) and that's one of the things he's taught me that I remember vividly, "when you're facing a problem and can't seem to find a solution, there's always the method of "do something" ". "Something" doesn't have to be the right thing necessarily, but you can't sit on your ass and wait for the problem to simply go away on its own. It can happen sometimes, I suppose, but you can't really count on that. So just do something. And maybe that "something" will lead you to another "something" and eventually you'll get "somewhere".
That's how I feel right now. There have been some things that I can't seem to finish (some of them I can't even start) and no matter how much I've tried, there's been no progress, but this rearrangement of my room's furniture has given me a new perspective, I'd say, and I think I might be able to go on now. We'll see.
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